Monday, September 18, 2006

blurry

the life i pretend i have and the life i have has been a constant struggle for me my entire life. sometimes i don't live in my own reality. i blur the lines and end up on the outside looking in. i imagine myself like i would like to be instead of what i am, at times. i feel like i am missing out on the bigger picture. but i am thinking things through right now and this is the truth: i don't like where my life is going.

in the past couple of weeks i have had a small lapse in self-discipline... motivation.. peace.. and control... my happiness is still there in a huge way... it just seems quieter...

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