Wednesday, February 22, 2006


Answer my JOHARI window :)

Overkill by Colin Hay

Download the mp3 "Overkill" by Colin Hay by clicking here

Overkill I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
Perhaps its just my imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets S
mell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night
From overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too dee
pAnd possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alrightIt's just overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Best Quote from Brokeback Mountain.

Sabi ni Jay, Trixy, and Van (from their blogs), the best quote is the one wherein Jack Twist told Ennis Del Mar, “I wish I know how to quit you.” Then Ennis told Jack, “Well, why don’t you!” Awwww. Pwede ba yan sa work? During management presentations when a customer won’t stop bickering and all you can do is to provide him/her with an analysis. Haha! Try telling that to KT…

“KT, I wish I know how to quit you!”


Pero the best quote for me is not the “how to quit you” quote.

My favorite quote is this one, by Jack Twist,

“The truth is...sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it.”


Now try telling that to your boss.

Side comment: Jack twist is a weird name. DJ Twist? DJ Twist(er). Harhar!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Zupped Deej?

Zupped - Ewan ko ba kung anong ibig sabihin nito. Tanong natin kay La Aunor. Hehehe...

My past posts, usually puro about MP3s, quotes, movie reviews. I know, may naghahanap ng update tungkol sa madrama kong buhay. Hehehe... Ka-miss ba? I stopped bitchin' about my job kasi medyo "light" naman (except ngayong week na 'to). I'm just gathering all the projects that i want to work on then it's game on.

I finished my monthly report today. Ang haba. Ang daming projects. And that's a good sign na may value pa ako. Wahahaha! May mga interesting projects that i really want to be part of like the project being led by Mike Viera.

Right now, I'm coordinating with wonderboy Norman "Normy" Lapid, Po and Mam Aura. It's about the "in-house" trainings for Intel IEs. I hope to get good proposals from them. OR. Operations Research. I wonder kung sinong magtuturo. Wala na si Liwanag (bwiset na prof, nagdidilim lang paningin ko), wala na si Lowell. Sana si Normy. Teacher Normy!

Daming available projects sa VF. I know i can't get involved to all of them. 1 or 2 projects will do. I'm still working on it, how to be part of the team. Thank God that I'm chairing our JIT, the exposure really helped.

Intel Sportsfest will start in March. Volleyball! New team. Actually, dagdag lang sina Peter sa team namin. Team name: Superproxy. Wala na kaming maisip na team name eh. Aside from VBall, I'll be joining the IE Badminton team (teka Van, may slot pa ba?).

Oh crap. Hahaha. I remember our meeting last monday with Ben "Robot" Drevet. Ang saya di ba. Inaantok lang yan. Oh shhh.... shhh.... oh crap!

I updated my Friendster page. More pics. Pero wala pa yung studio shot (calling Niccolo Cosme!!!!).

It's now WW08.2. Can't believe na patapos na ang Q1. Oh no. OMG! The EIT IE req will be open soon and i'm still behind on the trainings that i need (trainings done = zero). Huhummm... Sino pa kaya mag-aapply? I need to turn my radar on. Sino sino sino? I don't want to be an Area IE anymore (hanggang end of Q2 lang ang usapan). I have to check JobsOnline tomorrow.

Whew! Kapagod na week. Pero di pa naman ako super (duper) stressed. Wednesday pa lang bukas. Haaaay. I need to file my VL.

GA Quotes: "Bring in the Pain"

Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness. The random pain, the normal pains we live with every day. Then there’s the kind of pain you can’t ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of the world fade away…until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.

Pain. You just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time, pain can be managed, but sometimes, the pain gets you when you least expect it. It’s way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because, the truth is, you can’t outrun it. And life always makes more.
--[Grey's Anatomy]--

Tuesday Blues

You need to listen to this song.
Promise, you'll love it.

"Sea Lion Woman" (Live @ Rehearsal Hall) by Feist

Monday, February 20, 2006

Help the Leyte Landslide Victims

Let us give whatever we can, financially or in kind, and do our share in rescue and relief efforts.

A massive landslide rumbled down Friday morning, burying hundreds of houses and a school packed with elementary students. The Philippine National Red Cross said that the number of casualties is expected to be in the hundreds, even as up to 1,500 are feared missing.

Aside from the residents of Guinsaugon, other villages affected by landslides in St. Bernard are Ayahag, Nueva Esperanza, Tambis I, Maria Socorro, and Sug-angon.

We share the nation’s grief over the tragedy that befell Barangay Guinsaugon in St. Bernard, Southern Leyte. But more than sharing in their grief, let us put our hearts and minds together to help the victims.

I'm not sure where you can send donations "in-kind." I believe there are drop boxes at Philippine Red Cross regional offices, at ABS-CBN and at GMA7.

For cash donations, please deposit your donations to

Metrobank acct#: SA 3041-63122-88
Acct. name: Philippine National Red Cross,
Branch: Port Area, Manila
For: Southern Leyte Landslide Victims

These are urgently needed to support at least 1, 551 survivors being housed in several evacuation centers in St. Bernard and nearby towns. Let's pray for the victims, their families, as well as the rescuers who are themselves putting their lives at risk so that others may live.

DJ for Sale

I am worth $1,891,830 on

Monday Music

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Inside and Out by Feist
Yup. It's a Bee Gees song. But Feist rocks. One of the best rendition-type music (geez, everyone's doing their own version of a classic hit). Thank God Feist did a great job singing this Bee Gees classic.

I Will Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab for Cutie
DCFC is a great band. One of the best. Their music style is oh-so-different from the current pop-rock bands. I'll play this song when i get married. Beach setting. Nice.

Dice by Finley and William Orbit
From OC Mix 1, this song was played during the New Year's Eve episode of th OC season 1. I love the OC and I love this song. You should love it too.

First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes
One of the best live acoustic performance.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

La Vie Boheme

525,600 minutes in one year. We count every single minute. Every minute that pass, we always try to do something good, something bad, something fun, something horrible, something stupid. After 1 year, we try to look back and see how much changed or doesn't change in the 525,600 minutes that make up that year.

The movie featured a lot of interesting characters. There's Roger, the HIV positive and former junkie. Mimi the strip joint dancer. Maureen, the lesbian activist. Joanne, the Harvard-educated lawyer/ Maureen's lover. Collins, the expelled MIT student who fell in-love with Angel, a NY drag queen. Mark (my favorite character), the nerdy documentary-film director. And there's Coffin, the yuppie ex-boheme who turned his back from his friends.

The story revolves around HIV, drugs, gay relationships, activism, and how each character lived the life of misery and hope.

It's about life. 525600 minutes worth every year. It's about enjoying it. It's living a boheme kind of life. It's about paying rent, but not today.

Movie Marathon

I bought 10 DVDs today. I hope to watch all of them over the weekend. Aside from the 10 DVDs, i haven't watched Serenity and Constant Gardener that Jay gave me a couple of weeks ago. I'll be posting my not-so witty reviews.

The DVDs that i bought and why i bought it
1. Rent - I'm a fan of musicals on DVD.
2. Aeon Flux - Charleze on tight leather
3. North Country - Charleze is such a great hollywood actress
4-6. Godfather Series - Classics!
7. Munich - A Spielberg movie.
8. Saw 2 - Because my cousin told me to buy the DVD
9. The Matador - Pierce doing comedy. Interesiting huh?
10. Transporter 2 - Stunts with Audi cars. Nice.

Whew! 11 DVDs, 2 other movies from Jay. Just what i need before another manic monday.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Fall At Your Feet

To download the MP3, click here

Fall At You Feet
James Blunt

I'm really close tonight
And I feel like I'm moving inside
Lying in the dark
And the thing that I'm beginning to know of
Let it go
I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

You're hiding from me now
There's something in the way that you're talking
Words don't sound right
But I hear them all moving inside you go now
I'll there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help
Who knows where that might lead
I fall

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help
Who knows where that might lead
I fall at your feet

Keeping it to yourself

Most of the time it's not worth it to say what's really on your mind.
Most people take the 'safe' route and keep quiet.
Wishing that time will pass quickly.
Hoping not to get swallowed up by a big black hole of humiliation.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Li'l Cousin Marcus


Bored! Medyo lang. I need to have a new project before ako masiraan ng bait! Aside from the oh-so-routine jobs, wala na. Well, there's the team that I'm currently leading but we only meet 2x a month. While Van and Jona work on their new jobs, I'm stuck with mine until the end of Q2. What to do, what to do?

Right now, i'm doing some capacity planning stuff pero it's only for the site. Due tomorrow. Pero di pa ako tapos mag-analyze kasi paiba-iba yung assumptions. Then there's this project across the VF pero very vague pa yung project kasi in conflict with the other projects. I'm also working with the IE ISO team (i hate ISO!). Yun lang. Wala na. Again, back to my routine job, validate dito, project that. Wala na. Di na ako na-e-excite.

Is it possible for me to get a job in the US, aside from the EIT IE role? Probably do some Fab IE jobs or be an ATD IE? Medyo impossible di ba? Check na lang natin. Check check.

Haaaay. Anyway, sana pumasok na si Elmer with the ultimate discs. Na-e-excite na kami! Sayang nga di umabot last week when we went to the Hot Air Balloon event in Pampanga.

In March magstart na din ang volleyball competition. Then summer outing (ssan ba Jay? Bora? Palawan? Puerto? WHERE?).

Still, i need to get a new job. Sabi nga ni Con, mahirap maging bored sa trabaho. Nakakamatay yan!

Here's Wasted by Black Flag. Enjoy! the free mp3!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

(TGIS) Thank God I'm Single

Haaaay. Valentines Day na naman. Good thing about being single eh di ka magastos. Wahahaha. Anyway, here are some Heart's Day MP3s. Magpaka-senti na lang tayo! Download na!

Top 10 Heart's Day Songs
(just click and download)

Kate Earl - Someone To Love
Sylvie Lewis - By Heart
Kendall Payne - Scratch
Nouvelle Vague - I Melt With You
Lifehouse - You and Me
Petra Haden & Bill Frisell - Yellow
James Blunt - Tears and Rain
Jim Noir - I Me You I'm Yours
Magnet - Dancing in the Moonlight
Michael Tolcher - Sooner or Later

Steady Lang

We went to Pampanga last Friday. 3 Cars, 10 people, 1 goal... Have a fun-tastic weekend! Woohoo!

Sound of Music @ NLEX
Sorry kay Jona, she's OP during the trip from Shell NLEX to Raf's place. Thanks to Mel's Sound of Music OST, laugh trip all the way. Mas fun pa when Jowell sang the whole soundtrack. LAHAT! Buong lyrics ng mga songs. Pucha, lupet! Pati yung mga lines ng mga sisters when they were singing "How do you solve a problem like Maria?" Wahahaha! Panalo!

Sleepless in Pampanga
We arrived at Raf's place around 11pm. Nakalatag na lahat, banig, comforters, air beds. We have to wake up at around ~330am because we to be at the "Hot Air Balloon" spot around 5am. Pero si Jowell, hanggang 2am (actually, way past 2am) gising pa. Waaaaah! Di pa nakainom yan.

Pirata Jay ala Dugu-dugu gang
Van accidentally locked the 1st floor bathroom. No one can open the door, tulog na ang mom ni Raf. What to do? What to do? Hmmm... Akala ko, using a credit card to break-in in someones house only happens in the movies, pero iba si Jay. Di lang pirata, dugu-dugu ganing member pa! Open sesame!

Intel Employees Leap Ahead
We decided to wear our Intel shirts. Pucha, para kaming nag-field trip. Actually, para kaming event sponsor, kulang na lang eh booth and banners. During the event, we took a lot of pictures, of ourselves. Wahahaha. Feeling ko pinagtitinginan na kami kasi we kept on jumping while our pictures were being taken. Jump Jump Jump. Pero wait, parang sa mga pictures, walang shot si Trixy na tumatalon? Paki explain nga in 1 sentence?

Octopus and Gravitron
Actually, i chickened out sa Octopus ride. I'm scared na baka tumilapon na lang ako. Tsk tsk tsk. I don't trust locally made rides except kung sa EK or sa Euro Star. Ayan, naging camera man ako during their Octopus ride.

The next ride was Gavitron. Perya version ng G-Force. This time sumama ako. Bull! Nahilo ako.

Pampanga's Best: Fatty Tocino and Longanisa!
Lunch at Raf's place. All i can say is that FAT never tasted better!

Hidden Resort at Pampanga
Ang ganda! Ang lambot! Wahahaha. Bakit di kami nagpunta dito last year? Paki-explain nga kung bakit sa hotspring kami nagpunta last year? Hehehehe... Naka ~100 ata ako sa videoke!

Hindi Bilog, Tatsulok!
Gin Pom = Bilog. Don Enriq = Tatsulok. Panalo. I had 6 shots and i'm still standing! Raise the bar! tapos wala pang hangover thanks to Advil + Gatorade. Pero natalo ako ni Iam, naka 15 shots ata. Hmmm... Malaki ata problema ni Iam. Don't worry mananalo ka sa CMO IE Couple contest. Promise.

Panic Buying
Time to buy our pasalubong. I spent almost ~1K sa tocino, longanisa, uraro, and peanut butter. As in, parang "It's the end of the world" na. Wahahaha.

Nice place. May lighthouse in front of a man-made lake. Pero... MAINIT NA! Wahahaha.

Class suit against NLEX. Pucha, mali yung mga signs. To Manila pero pa north? Jay, Trixy and Jona took the wrong exit. Instead of exiting to Mexico, sa Dau pa sila nag exit. Wahahaha. Ano na? Mahal ang toll!

Petron Park
Kita-kits sa Petron before we go to Libis. Maglatag ng banig sa damuhan, parang park. Magkuhanan ng picture. Hehehehe... Pati Petron pinatos sa kodakan.

If the Shoe Fits
Well, di ako bumili ng shoes kasi wala sila nung color na hinahanap ko. Sports Warehouse in Libis. Super bargain! Pero short lang nabili ko. Complete na yung outfit ko pag nagstart kami ng Ultimate sa Intel. Puma red shirt, Puma black short, Puma Red/Black socks, Puma Red/Black/White shoes. Kulang na lang eh underwear. Wahahaha...

Haaaay! Sarap ng steady weekend. Next Intel Barkada trip? Euro Star Carnival on Feb25. After that, either Bora or some beach. Si Jay na mag-aayos nun. Ang problem lang is kung paano kami ni Jona mag-lea-leave sa office! Mag ka back-up kasi kami. Kainis!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Quotes from Grey's Anatomy

Meredith Grey: We can’t help ourselves. We see a line, we want to cross it. Maybe it’s the thrill of trading the familiar for the unfamiliar. A sort of personal dare. Only problem is, once you’ve crossed it’s almost impossible to go back. But if you do manage to make it back across that line you find safety in numbers.

Alex Karev: For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything.

PBB Celeb Edition

"Bombshell in Distress” - Aleck Bovick
“Wild Flower of Cebu” - Angela Calina
“Y-Speaker of the House” - Bianca Gonzales
“Karate Chick” - Gretchen Maladlad
“Kilabot ng Senado" - Keanna Reeves
“La fashionista” - Mich Dulce
“Divang Kolehiya” - Roxane Barcelo
“M16 ng Samar” - Budoy Marabiles
"Hunk Daddy" - Christian Vasquez
“Dance Floor Dynamite” - John Pratts
“Heartthrob DJ” - Rico Robles
“Iron Man of Asia” - Rudy Fernandez
“Prodigal Son ng Showbiz” - Rustom Padilla
“Coverboy ng Batanggas” - Zanjoe Merudo

My bets: Budoy, Rico, Bianca and Gretchen


I rarely say thanks or sorry or I love you. I stutter, I held back. It’s hard for me to show my true emotions, to tell my story, to show people that I do care, that I’m not apathetic. I rather live a life where people see me as sarcastic, snob and annoyingly frigid. People show their true emotions in different ways. Verbal communication is not always the best way to send a message. Body language might be better than hysterical babbles.

Monday, February 06, 2006

Quiet Monday

Mondays were supposedly very hectic, very busy. Since 7am, I’ve been popping Advils like candy. Not because of work, but because I’m bored that it makes my head hurt. I was done for today’s work since I finished it over the weekend. I’m left with 1 more presentation to finish and it will only take me an hour or so.

I complain when I’m overworked, so why am I complaining when I have nothing else to do?

I feel useless.

It’s already 1:15, I’ll finish the presentation material then probably go inside the manufacturing floor. Maybe I can find something better than candy to cheer me up for the day.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Tears and Rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

Truth and Lies

People lie. But lies are not entirely bad. You lie because you want to protect your friends, your family, the people you love. But you cannot get away with it. Sooner or later, the truth will resurface.

The truth will set you free. Honesty is the best policy. But let’s be more practical. Will you tell your friend that he’s annoying, or tell him that he needs to stop whining?

The truth hurts…

That’s why we lie.